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[leafonthewind]

I heard Kaylee got on the wrong end of something and now I can't find her. Has anyone seen her? Is she all right? She hasn't been back on the boat and I'm worried.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

No she hasn't. I helped her out, but I haven't seen her. Might be better for you to try talking to her if you find her.

[governorkang]

...shit. I'll let you know if I see her.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Thanks, man. I think I really fucked things up here. I should have known this could happen.

I even warned her that my family's cursed. It was only a matter of time.

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[governorkang]

Dean, this didn't happen because of her connection to you. She wasn't the only one that got possessed, and it makes sense that it'd go after her since she's so well-liked.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Bullcrap. Yeah I heard about the others, but look, it's happened to my old man and even my brother once. If it wasn't possession, it would have been something else to her. I shouldn't have said anything about how I felt about her.

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[governorkang]

...you told her?

Think about it. Think about where we are, and all the weird shit we have to put up with. Of course something would happen to her at some point. Stop blaming yourself.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Yeah I told her. Told her everything too, or enough for the biography of Dean Winchester.

Kang, listen, this wasn't Ohm or bug aliens fucking us up. This was demonic possession. What Sam and I dealt with all the freaking time back home. It's different.

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[governorkang]

It wasn't a demon from your world, and it didn't choose her to fuck with you specifically.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Look, my brother and I lost our mom to demons, Sam lost his girl the same way. I still made her a target and couldn't protect her.

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[governorkang]

Dean, stop being an idiot about this. You are not to blame for the other day.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

You don't get it. In some ways I am.

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[governorkang]

No, I get it. You have the biggest goddamn guilt complex I've ever seen, and you can't even comprehend something bad involving people you care about not being at least partially your fault.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Kang, fuck you.

You don't know shit.

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[chosenfamily]

Dean? You okay?

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

No, Sam. It happened again. I should have known better than to tell her about us.

Kaylee got possessed by a demon. Her eyes weren't black and looked like a pentacle symbol on her. Exorcised the son of a bitch away.

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[chosenfamily]

Yeah, I was dealing with a few of those, too.

Dean. This isn't your fault.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Like hell. Expect me to buy it's a coincidence? Now? After all shit we've gone through?


Sammy...I told her everything just before this. That I love her and about our family and us.

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[chosenfamily]

Honestly? Yeah, I really do think it is. That demon wasn't one of ours. It had no connection or real interest in either of us. It was just seriously, seriously bad timing.

Not knowing about it isn't protection, Dean. Jess...well, I never said anything about what we do to her and it didn't save her. And Cassie knew everything and she's fine, too.

Kaylee's alive, Dean. She's hurting and probably confused, but she's alive and she's safe now. And if you try withdrawing from her life so that she'll be 'safer'? I am so going to kick your ass into next week.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Cassie got away so that doesn't count. She took the hint and left.

...I wasn't going to. Not right away, give her some time first to deal.

Maybe it was a warning to back off.

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[chosenfamily]

Bullshit. You think for one moment that the other side didn't know that you loved Cassie? That you could have been gotten to through her?

Think, Dean. What would Bobby say if he knew you were thinking like this?

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

...Maybe.

I know what he'd say, be calling me an idjet again, and probably saying something about if he had one more chance with his wife.

...I won't shut her out. I just... I thought we were free of this crap.

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[chosenfamily]

He'd call you an idjet because you're acting like one. Wouldn't have a damned thing to do with his wife.

Yeah, well, at least this is crap we know how to deal with rather than those Ohm things. 'Shoot it 'til it's dead' only goes so far with them. Just...let Kaylee make the decision here. Because I'm pretty sure she thinks you're worth the crazy, you know.

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

Yeah I guess so, I tried that when I fessed up to her. Even after all that, she said she loved me. You believe it?

Well, that was before shit got real so I dunno now.

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[chosenfamily]

She already knew you, man. You don't let a lot of people in close, but once you do, you kind of wear your heart on your sleeve. What you told her only explained the kind of guy you'd become, it didn't change who you are. So yeah, I can believe that she loves you. It's not past tense.

This isn't going to change that, Dean. She won't blame you. NOBODY blames you except for one person, so stop being an idiot or I really will be smacking you into next week, okay?

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[notadamnangel.livejournal.com]

...Bitch shut up, I'm not like that. Man you know I hate this kind of chick flick shit.

Could have at least protected her better though. The son of bitch sure squealed with salt and holy water. Maybe I can convince her to keep something around. Set some lines around the Serenity even. She needs an amulet at least.