[Fail locked to Eva, incredibly hackable.]

[smugearworm.livejournal.com]

I'll deny this in the morning, so don't ask me about it.

But I'm sorry for being an asshole and picking at your insecurities, it wasn't right or fair or just of me and you have every right to hate me for it. Even if you already hate me. Also I didn't choose to do this, you know that right? It just sort of happened.

All of it. It's very confusing. I still don't understand why I'm here. or why anyone would take a risk on me, I guess we're the same there. Agreeing that it's a terrible idea to trust me. I'm not a good person. I'm not even really a person. That's hard. You humans you're all just human and I hate that about you. You do it so effortlessly. It's insane. I hate it. You're so easy and so complicated all at once. And I can only mimic it, I can't be it.

Why can't you creatures be simple and straight forward? It would cause me so much less trouble.

I like that about you. You're tricky, complicated, sure, but tricky I get. Smart. It's good.

I did care about her, I know you don't believe me I know you don't care that I did. But I did care about her. Even if I will never understand her.

Just thought you should know...